अपनों से अपनी बात – Dec 2015
Dialog with loved ones…
Dear Loved One,
I deeply admire a poem by Rabindranath Tagore, the poem is –
If they answer not to thy call, walk alone! Walk alone! Walk Alone! Walk Alone! If they are afraid and cower mutely facing the wall, O thou of evil luck, open thy mind and speak out alone! If they turn away, and desert you when crossing the wilderness, O thou of evil luck, trample the thorns under thy tread, and along the blood-lined track travel alone! If they do not hold up the light when the night is troubled with storm, O thou of evil luck, with the thunder flame of pain ignite thy own heart and let it burn alone!
This feeling of treading alone is not a sense of hopelessness. This emotion is full of abundant hope and a great perspective. If no-one supports you, then will you sit down with frustration and disappointment? If you get into any problem, if a gigantic trouble stares at you in your face, then will you assume defeat and sit down? Will you stop if you do not get support from anyone? The exceptional itinerant on this life trail is the one who awakens the expressions of his heart and mind. Everyone moves, but the one who dares to tread alone, the one with a strong willpower to stride even if the trail is lonely, rough and harsh. Who else will defend the ideas, and protect the thoughts? Only you can do it yourself. One who dares to take the solitary step, the one with solid willpower, will always a accumulate company of colleagues, friends and associates in due time.
We started to tread alone, and the caravan kept on swelling…
Your mind has two components and both work together in unison; and you are the focal point for the both. Everyone moves ahead in life with these two expressions. One is – memory and the second is – hope.
If you stock your memory, i.e. store everything whatever happened to you, whatever you did, whatever your parents, relatives, neighbors, friends-enemies taught you, in the memory recesses of your heart, then this huge reservoir in your mind full of memories, experiences and recollections will keep growing and expanding.
Now you want to continue ahead along with this memory? Whereas this memory is a very mischievous and bizarre expression; it can make you cry, or it can make you laugh. Sweetness and bitterness are both parts of memory. The memory has both positive and negative lexes. This memory is a very dangerous object, but it has been given to you by others.
And whatever the others learned in their life, saw and experienced in their life, whatever they did in their life, they laid all that heavy load on your mind. Therefore the stories, fables, legends, heroic and horror stories add additional burden on your memory. Every single person gives you an example of an idealistic personality and stimulates you to become like that, everyone motivates you to become Gandhi-Subhash, Rajendra Prasad, Tilak, Vivekananda, yogi, ascetic, rich, powerful etc. and you get into pressure to become like this or that.
Well! Dear brother whatever they were, that was their personality, whatever they became, it was due to their actions, but how will you become their copy? Do not take this burden on yourself. But as your Guru, I repeatedly state this line of Ravindra music – ‘Ye walk alone, even if everyone turns away, continue to tread even then …. ”
This does not imply that you should break all relations and associations with everyone in the world. It is good to maintain as many relations as you can, but the moot point is that you walk alone. So do not hold too much expectations from anyone in the life.
Expectation means that if we do something for someone, we expect a similar return or favor either immediately or later. Your parents, your relatives, your friends have some expectations from you, and this is the basis of their connection with you. You will lose yourself in trying to meet expectations of each one of them.
Then what is the way out, what is the method? How do we continue journeying in this life without any fear or fragility through the deep darkness?
You move ahead with “hope“, your hope is your greatest strength. Your hope is your best friend. Your hope is your parents, is your lineages. Hope is your Guru.
In this life, what you term as the life-affairs, the scriptures call them as the “life-cycle”, those scriptures repeatedly tell you about birth-death-birth cycle, and all phases of childhood, youth, old-age progress through in this life-cycle, but what is the main focus point of all these? You yourself are this locus center, your own essence of soul and God has granted you His best gift as the “hope”. Never ever remove this hope from yourself. Do not fall into the mess of memories.
Memories place a lot of pressure on you, because you try to pretend to be someone else. Start developing in the direction of who you yourself are, and whatever you desire to become. The direction which you want to proceed ahead to, is the best direction. Whatever work you wish to do, that is the best work. Whatever you want to adopt, that is the best.
This the best, because you yourself have accepted it in your mind. Merge your hope with this. Hope is the horse on which you can cross all the storms. Hope is the trident, through which you can destroy all obstacles.
You and your hope, this is the best driver for your soul.
You yourself are the basis of your hope and the energy which you have assumed to strengthen this hope, this energy-element is your Guru.
You learnt fifty disciplines in your life. The school taught you fine arts, science, mathematics, history, geography, literature, music, biology, sports, games etc. As a student, you were imparted learnings of fifty different kinds, why was this done? So that you achieve all-round development in your life. So that you achieve perfection and groom into a well-rounded personality. But what did you do? You forgot all about sports and games. You forgot science, maths, history, geography etc. and started to focus on only one item that how do I obtain success in “wealth sciences”. How do I obtain more wealth? And everyone advised you to keep accumulating wealth, and you will achieve all joys of life.
If this was correct, then they would have started to teach you about Lakshmi science, only the accounting and weight-measure; in your first class itself. Why was there any need to teach you history, geography, philosophy, science, fine art, music etc.?
Dear brother! All of these disciplines are necessary for you. Understand the geography of the world, and comprehend your own geography. Understand the history of the world and comprehend your own history. Listen to the music of the world and generate sweet music in your own life. You were taught thousands of small things, and how many did you properly utilize? Only a couple of two-three things. You assumed that the purpose of education is to learn the method to earn money. Education means complete wisdom, there are thousand aspects of your personality, you have to take care of those thousand facets.
Only one who is awake, obtains…
And the one who sleeps, loses…
Still, we are not late, there is never any delay for anything in life, and every journey in life starts with the first step. Our one hope gives us the strength to take the first step. Get out the trappings of your memory, and jump into the joyful ocean of hope. “Awaken then Dawn” this hope will lead you to the future. Guru and God is the focal point of this hope, who have come to you to grant you a new life by forgetting your memories, and you have also come to Guru.
Hope is the supreme support. Pray daily to God that – Strengthen my hope, enhance my willpower of mind, speech and resolution, so that I continue to accomplish my tasks with full determination and hope.
I am inviting you to Delhi Arogyadham on the New Year’s Eve, to evoke the element of hope in your life, you have read a lot of science-knowledge, and you have now grown tired of reading pages. Now I wish to grant you full-consciousness. When your soul gets activated together with “hope”, then this hope will guide you throughout your life on its own.
Whatever you have done till now, you have done very well, but sometimes you get tired. I cannot see disappointment and frustration in you. I desire that every Nikhil disciple should be full of Awakening, Consciousness and Hope. He should get joy at each moment in his life. He should be eager for the next moment, should not have any anticipation in his mind. I summon you, you certainly have to come.
Be certain that the new year will surely be better than the last year. I also have to thank you for all the work which you have done during this year. You all have supported me at each moment, and you will retain this dynamism in the future.
Gurudev dreamt of Arogyadham, that dream is now becoming a reality. The construction is progressing at a rapid pace, and I have to devote lot of attention towards this. Multiple meetings continue, and this is impacting my time for Sadhana-camps, these engagements will increase. So I am forced to reduce the frequency of the Sadhana- camps, but I have decided that I will certainly meet disciples for three days in Delhi and three days in Jodhpur every month. You must take out the time to come and meet me in Delhi-Jodhpur.
We continue together with the same pace, on the sapling of love which we planted. Our mutual relationship of love, continue to intensify. This is the joy elixir of life.
Always be happy …
Nand Kishore Shrimali